I understand now. I feel your pain. I hope the next job you get is something you want. I know that having a job that one does not like is also stressful. I do feel blessed with my situation. However, I owe it to my family for helping me and ensuring that I have no debt. I don't have any credit cards nor loans. This has helped me tremendously to have freedom financially. My mother told me not to spend money I don't have. This is the reason I don't have any credit cards. She told me to spend money that I have already or do without. She told me when she was first married my parents could not afford furniture. So, an insurance agent came by and asked,"Where is your furniture?" She replied,"We have none because we don't have any money." And, he left. So, sometimes it is better to do without than to keep up with everybody else, especially if you can't afford it. My parents are debt-free still and are still working. So, although my mother is insane at times, she knows how to spend money wisely. I also try not to spend money on clothes or unnecessary items. I just spend my money on eating out which is expensive too. I basically eat about once a day though. And, I am happy. I apologize for my preaching but hope that you are being wise with your money and not spending if you don't have any money.