I am from a older generation, when you don't talk about home problems, so even to this day I have a very hard time talking about my life. I start but only get to about the age of 12, because after that the abuse got so very much worse that it is the hardest for me to even bring it up. I started working on my story on this site, and still I only got to around 11 or 12. I am so sorry you are having problems with people that you are close to. People who haven't been abused in any way can't relate at all, so they don't know how to react, don't fault them, explain to them, so they do understand that there reaction hurts you. But don't stop talking about it. I am 52, and still can't get any further than I di, and I wouldn't wish that on anyone's brain to handle for there life.