I cant handle this anymore.Three weeks ago I ran out of lithium and my stupid ****ing doctors office/doctor just wouldn't do their ****ing job and call the pharmacy for a refill. Last night the doctor at an IOP i used to go to said just drop the lithium because I dont need it on top of my clozapine anyways. This morning I get a call from the pharmacy saying my prescription is ready so I call them back and ask if its the clozapine (which I am now out of as well) or the lithium. IT WAS THE LITHIUM.
So as soon as I officially stop taking it and stop worrying about getting a refill I get the refill.
I'm sick of dealing with my doctors office and the pharmacy and the lab every month. I'm sick of going to the hospital and waiting an hour to get stabbed. I'm sick of constantly wondering what's going to go wrong with the system next. I'm sick of all the red tape.
I saw another doctor yesterday who prescribed me two medications. Before I even got home I get a text from the pharmacy saying its ready. Why cant it always be like that?
I literally cried and raged last night because I ****ing loathe clozapine. The red tape, the side effects, and the constant reminder of what a ****ed up individual I am.
Why couldn't an easier med have worked for me?