I refer to it as Transference hell.

I am sure if a lot of us knew how painful it would be, we wouldn't have walked into T's office that first time. I have said on multiple occasions to my T that I have wished I had never met him. I think the more honest you are, the better. But you need someone with experience to help you through this because even with someone who is experienced, it's extremely difficult. You don't want to become stuck or have things become even more unbearable that it is now.

If your T can't help you with the transference then you need to ask her to suggest someone who can. Especially if you feel you get to breaking point.