I quite honestly realized that my hobbies are completely worthless to other people... I don't know if it makes sense... It feels kind of hollow.

I mean, I'd enjoy it for my own sake, but for it I have to continue getting tortured by doing things for which someone else has assigned some minimum worth... I think I'm making $200-300 this month... It doesn't have the same value in Russia, but still... Hey, although if I've counted right I shouldn't completely run out next month, so maybe it's not all so bleak...