Thank you so much, LP

I imagine it's impossible to avoid flood gates opening up upon learning this sort of thing. I guess I just feel like... idk. I had words to put here, they've left me now.

Your comments about not worrying about the literal realness of things sounds so much like my therapist, heh. Maybe you're right. All diagnoses, literal reality, etc. aside - for whatever reason, my brain is wanting to approach the work I'm doing in therapy (this is what is bringing this back up again -- trying to do this new work I'm doing) in 'parts' that are 'other than me' with different 'realities' and perspectives and completely different feelings, thoughts, values, etc. about everything. Maybe that's all I need to 'worry' about -- not proof that it's 'real,' but just that it's the way my brain is doing it, like it or not.

I don't much care if or how I'm functioning in parts all the time, because I function well, however I do it. Maybe I don't even really need to understand that bit of it. The only place this is actually causing me agony is in my therapy.

Hm. Just realizing that as I type it...
It's carrying over into my daily life and impacting my functioning right now, but that's only happening because of what I'm doing in therapy.
And, I decided to do this work, because I think it will be helpful to me in the long run. So, as long as I choose to do this work, it's bound to stir things up.
Maybe the only place/thing I (we? ugh that feels awful) need to 'come together' on is the therapy work. Because the rest is already functioning fine, however it's handled... (OK a couple of maladaptive things that are not related to therapy work, but I'm hoping the therapy work will resolve those 'symptoms.')