When you have thoughts like that it is never over dramatic! Even if this only hapends once. I have been there several times in my life and did end up over that very fine edge. Thankfully the man upstairs still has a plan for me, otherwise I would have been gone a long time ago. If you have these thoughts you need help to find out why, and to try to fix the problem. If you are seeing someone, you need to tell them you have thoughts like these, so they can help you. No offence to you, but you don't need to put this type of fright on your loved ones. It can make them turn away, because they can't handle it, don't know what to say to help you, ect. I am glad you reached out here, but you may need more than this site.