Are these entirely cosmetic surgeries? Curiosity has gotten to me there.
If they are, and even if not, do you really need them for quality of life? Is it worth the anxiety you're going through?
I've heard from one very pompous cosmetic surgeon that was very drunk at a party for the wealthy I worked, "we always do just a good enough job to make them come back. Even if I could fix the elephant man in one trip, there's no money in it." He then laughed like he thought he was both Robin Williams and the crowd but only him. Most people at those parties said really stupid stuff like that about an hour before the bar closed.
I think I make butts look cute, but that's my self esteem usually. It's taking tiny steps past myself to see that I'm not all that ugly. Maybe I'm ok.
I'm sure you're ok no matter what. Most people are very beautiful, the rest haven't realized it yet.