Thank you Christina,
I've asked him to get counseling for his addiction, he's adamant that he will not do that. He's been doing this for over 40 years, so I sort of understand that he just can't quit. It is unhealthy, for both of us. Me dealing with his irritability and him needing the drug. He keeps saying he doesn't need it, but "wants" it. It could be worse. It is cannabis, but his use is extreme. AT least 6 joints a day, more on weekends.
I could consider more counseling, but we are short on counselors again in my town. Maybe I'll think of an NA meeting, it might help me. I'm just confused, I feel I love him and I feel he will further hurt himself with his addictions if I leave him.