I said to myself the other day, how can someone(me)who has no money spend so much of it.

Money is an issue for me too. Rent? Bills? Food? Nah, I'm going to spend it on dumb stuff or go on a bender and spend 8 hours at the casino.

I have only the positive of knowing that maybe tomorrow won't be so bad and keep going. I figure out ways to repair the damage until next time. Wash, rinse, repeat. Sometimes it takes weeks to sort out. But we are resourceful. It will get better.