I actually am too scared to ask.

I have said that I am not coping and hinted at needing more. Like even a txt just to say hang in there... but no. I guess he thinks its better to wait until we see each other.

Im going to tell him that I wont be dropping of letters anymore. I was so triggered by feeling ignored tonight, its too hard. This is the first time dropping off a letter has made me feel terrible. Usually being able to get out my feelings relieves anxiety but sometimes I think its too much just getting nothing back when you need it.