I have accomplished something today. I made banana bread where small chunks of banana can be found in the bread. You see what is being at the apex of my day is like? My life changed quite allot when I ended up on SSDI. No challenges, no adventure, no structure in my life, no accomplishments from a productive life., cannot go anywhere or do anything. My mind has been turning into a vegetable. No thought comes from a vegetable.

I have made a mess out of my life. I am fighting a DUI charge, even though nothing found in my blood to explain it, no car because of a recent accident, and I cannot afford another one either, no job to save up for a car, starting to spend money like I have in the past, purchasing things on impulse when I really do not have any money to spend. I am sure there is more. But enough whining.

I need to find a way out of this. I do not think that will happen anytime soon. I will look at it as a process. I will try to think more positive. Something like seeing the glass full instead of half empty. I am thinking of trying group therapy. I do not have a car, but transportation can be arranged by the clinic. At least I will be doing something about my situation.