So I'm in the process of studying for the IRS SEE exam. My mood has been good to a little above average, nothing to worry about really(At least I don't worry about it but my pdoc does). With this being said, I haven't really thought much about being bipolar, not even really watching my mood changes all that closely.

However, my modifications for the test expired and I had to renew them. I had to fill out this paperwork and get my pdoc to fill out some before faxing it over. I had to wait a week for them to process them before I could schedule my test. Which I finally did.

But going through all of this and looking at my accommodations (separate room and time and a half) reminds me of the fact that I'm really bipolar. I like to live my life without constantly thinking or worrying about bipolar. I like to try to be as "normal" as it will allow me to be. But having to do all this to get the modifications and the actual accommodations remind me of my condition and how not "normal" I really am. It's like a slap in the face reminder and it makes me slightly depressed. I actually feel guilty for having to have accommodations in the first place. Feels like I'm cheating somehow.