I was like this 3 years ago when I ended up ip for the first time. Every part of my life was a mess, EVERYTHING. I ended up with a really good therapist who helped me focus on 1 thing at a time. We would set goals, what to compete first etc. This took quite some time to sort through. I was so overwhelmed I couldn't see straight. I still have issues with spending m, it's a work in progress. Just wanted you to know your not alone, we understand here