Thank you for your encouragement. I left out the part about the delusions on which my exuberance, pride, confidence etc was based. That's the part that was a sham... You're right in that it helps to know there are others going throw a similar patch. Sometimes I also feel like I am just existing to take care of my cat (we are off to a vet who just does cats soon for a second opinion) and my recently graduated son who chipped his teeth in a bar named "Sublime" (I hope it turns out to be a great learning experience in the long run). I have a meager life otherwise and am tired all of the time except a short period in the late afternoon/early evening when I perk up a bit.