Hey guys. I have a question about what's going on with me.

I've been getting irritated for no reason, and I'm not experiencing a mood episode. I don't feel happy nor do I feel depressed. I'm pretty numb actually. But I'm still getting irritated and there's nothing causing the irritation. I've been seeing/hearing things too and keep thinking my phone is recording me, it's hard to describe what's going on. I see/hear things even when I'm not in a mood episode. I'm having a hard time finding the energy to do anything too. I feel no motivation towards anything and it's like I'm just existing instead of living. I have to push myself to shower every few days and haven't been doing things I normally do in over a year. I was in IP recently for a severe depressive episode .. then I went into a mixed episode. Now I'm just numb and irritated for no apparent reason. I can't see my pdoc yet since my car is broke down so I'm stuck at home dealing with this, I can reach out to friends/family but none of them understand what I experience. So they can't be much of help. The only thing I can do is get on here and ask you guys for advice. I've been told before I might have schizoaffective disorder and not just bipolar. But I'm having a hard time right now trying to deal with my darn mind not working properly. I wish I would just stop seeing/hearing things .. I keep hearing things fall in the next room but everytime I go check there's nothing on the floor. I've been seeing shadows following me around sometimes, lately it's been just hearing things falling though. I just want to be normal already