Anything around change - change in our session time, change in the space, change in how we do therapy, anything that might indicate that she will be different.

I can initiate change with significantly less issues. She does or says anything that I take as something changing; I go to the place that I am bad for wanting it the way it was or I am scared because I don't know how it will be different.

Boundaries is similar in the sense that if she brings up something as a boundary, I feel bad for wanting and/or asking for it in the first place.