Just wanted to update for the fellow addicts out there.

Today Ive gotten to 128 days sober. Its a miracle as the end of 2017 and the start of 2018 have been extremely rough. I got really sick, my work dried up and having money problems, my car had to be replaced sinking me more into debt, my life was threatened by some crazy guy while driving, and some other fun stuff.

Since I didnt go into addiction I didnt bury myself in a bigger hole. I do have bigger debt now and have to wait until my work gets busier when tourist season starts in March, but Ill survive. I just eat less and not buy anything and try not to think about it. I focus on exercise, diet, sleep, and being healthy.

It blows my mind that after 32 years of being an addict that I had other options the whole time. That just by making better decisions and not going into my addiction, I can weather the storm and not cause more problems.

It helps I have also not been depressed for 128 days too, but Ive made so many gains, I go into anti-depression mode right away when getting down as I cant go back to the way I was last year. As long as I can see a glimmer of hope I will fight.