I have been self medicating my adhd on/off for awhile with street meth (Desoxyn is meth amphetamine and Adderall is also mixed amphetamine salts). I swear in small doses it drastically improves my quality of life but the stigma is insufferable and my relationship status is officially undateable aka dealbreaker #1. The biggest problem is that this is called dual diagnosis and it’s practically impossible to convince a clinician what I know without a doubt that I’ve demonstrated adhd symptoms since 2nd grade but it wasn’t heard of back then. Now I’m told when wishing to step down from the potentially toxic lethal & illegal substance to a manageable one which I believe will stop the relapse cycles from continuing as I don’t want to be a meth addict but I can’t get anything I intend to do done and feel like my life is passing me by while I sit idle until I can’t take it anymore and wish to be productive towards my life goals and relapse.

There’s too long of a traditional thought that addicts seek drugs and although they’re willing to use harm reduction to save lives in the opiate addiction, I’m told that it’s too risky of a liability for any doctor which I believe is not apart of their oath. It’s very sad. There are others like me (all whom you would never even suspect..) who do not display irrational behavior nor dysfunctional thoughts or anxiety from it but instead of being funny adhd, or touchy feels ecstasy ravers (also MA ~ MDMA), we are labeled and discriminated against as if we’re scum of the earth the minute we trust someone as safe to disclose our secret. It’s a nightmare and certainly has ruined my life but not in the way predicted and in fact because of the nasty stereotype in the faces of meth campaign. This gives me anxiety!