I can relate to struggling, needing emotional support and being disappointed and even more sad when my husband fails to provide the emotional support I need from him. I also can relate to feeling like a burden for needing emotional support and not getting that need met and instead can even get the reaction that encourages me to feel that my emotional needs are a burden.

I am sorry that you don't have a person you can spend time with that has the ability to be emotionally supportive with you as you face this scary challenge with your mother's illness. It's ok to be afraid ((pinkvilla)). You are doing the best you can, visiting her and being supportive and making sure you are a presence "there" for her as best as you can be. A parent's illness can most definitely be scary and lead one to feeling helpless. Take this challenge one day at a time and allow yourself to flow with this challenge and try not to presume the worst. You can always post here in your thread if you need to just vent and reach out for support.

Also, when it comes to your husband, ask him for hugs, even if he could rub your back a little, those are "actions" he can do and can learn to do and getting a nice warm hug can be very soothing and helpful because human beings are designed to feel better after getting hugged in that it releases oxytocin and that chemical is extremely soothing and comforting.