ED thoughts raging...and saying...
if I don't follow through, then having mentioned it at all is a shameful attention-seeking thing to have done
can't mention ED stuff coming back up without following through and losing weight
GroupT said it's about finding a grip of control in this chaos
I know doing it won't even make me feel control it just makes me feel worse
and yet the voice says
but maybe this time it'll be different...this time it'll work