I think I need to increase my Seroquel again (unfortunately). I thought I was doing fine after decreasing it. This state of agitation is not normal. I feel absolutely horrible. I think I scared off a friend. I was being nice, but I don't think she understands what is happening to me. Some people just don't realize that all the seemingly illogical things that are bothering me are completely important to me. I fear they see me as just "being dramatic." If anything, I want to hide, because I am embarrassed of the way I am feeling and acting, but I just can't control it right now.

This is the worst state I've been in within the last few months. I hate needing more meds, but it looks like I must. I should have known that a dose decrease would de-stabilize me during this time. I had been taking the lower dose of Seroquel over the past few weeks. Trying to use coping skills can only carry me so far. Klonopin isn't doing much for me either. Neither is Gabapentin. I think the Lamictal is keeping me out of the hospital, but I feel I am at the verge of needing IP if things don't improve soon.