I used to enjoy the few days of pure mania, but the transition is too quick for me these days, and the paranoia sets in too quickly for me. I hope that you get to skip this stage. It is becoming worse for me to deal with because I still am out in the real world destroying myself, and nobody gets it, including me. I isolate myself from coworkers, the people I must get along with daily, and my world is awful. I know that I make others uncomfortable to be around me. I don't blame them. I am uncomfortable with myself. I want people to like me-I am a product of ptsd-so I really feel upset when I create my own problems through paranoia.

I would love a normal night's sleep, and not to grit my teeth, and not to move my legs constantly.

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