I've come to learn (the hard way) that other people just don't care enough to treat us differently. I find the only try escape from the madness is also to revisit solitude. But most importantly having message boards to vent my frustration. I'm currently experiencing anger because my dad set off one of my triggers, gambling. He knows! Anyway I truly hope you feel better about yourself soon, because sometimes hearing others issues, alleviates some of the pressure and let's face it, we all seek the same thing. Control.