Thank you all so much for your sweet, kind replies

You've all given me very strong suggestions. I suppose joining some clubs or going to parks or other places with interests similar to mines would work... but I'm not sure what my interests even are so I'm not sure how to start even a basic conversation. I'm also not sure that's really what I'm looking for.. although that's important, I think I'm looking more for someone who could be able to support me through difficult times (and of course I would give the same support back).

I'm already trying my best to distract myself. But it often feels so meaningless, like I'm just avoiding my problems instead of facing them..