I have been eliminating people out of my life for several years now. I am an introvert, and they tend to bother me. The only one that is left is my mother, and people that keep trying to reach me but I never answer my phone. What I have figured out is that I am trying to transcend reality. However I cannot escape myself. Can you disappear?
I mostly feel okay with self preservation through Isolation, but I don't feel like other humans. I feel like Travis Bickle on Taxi driver.

"The days go on and on... they don't end. All my life needed was a sense of someplace to go. I don't believe that one should devote his life to morbid self-attention, I believe that one should become a person like other people." Quote from taxi driver.

The world is chaos and here I am standing still as it zooms around me. I don't feel as though I am relative to very much at all. Here on earth I am in a state of atonement. I am here but not here. I have goals that I meet, and things that I do, but I never feel fulfilled because there is no one to share them with. Is this dissociative disorder?