I have pinpointed from some discussion that my recent depression downswing is my lack of contrave that I have been without for I’d say past three weeks. It was giving me a daily dosage of 270 mg of Wellbutrin. I asked my primary to fill my psyc scripts a few weeks ago and she did, with the exception of contrave. The last time I got a script of contrave was from my iop pdoc in December. I am feeling a bit out of control. I am definitely having a moderate depression and am teary. I cried couple days ago. How can I get this filled immediately. Today is Saturday so I can’t go through my primary. My iop pdoc told me to ask primary to fill my script if I was going to be over 30 days before I see a new pdoc. And the new pdoc appointment is two weeks away.

I have been ruminating last day or so on how worthless my life has been, how many people have shuttered me, the reason I became so depressed and all my failures and lack of success. Another major driving point is how lonely I am and how I can’t attract a girlfriend or start a relationship. I can’t even get out to get myself out there. And for talk therapy is worse. I don’t see my therapist till end of February. I have no idea how she would respond with dropping this on top of her after not seeing her since August.