I think it's great that you can be open here on PC. There may have been some things that you could have done differently, looking at it in hindsight maybe, but not in the moment. And that's where it counts. And that therapist hadn't helped you "change" the way you respond to things, to something that works better for you. It also sounds like you didn't trust that therapist very much. And, with good reason, I think, if you were more concerned with her feelings than yours. She was concerned more with her own feelings, too, it seems like, from what you have written. Just my opinion about that, though.