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MzJelloFluff said:
after the call i got in response yesterday i am pretty defeated. i'm apparently not good enuff. Nothing i do is good enuff even when i gave my best. i was proud of myself and he just walked on it and moved on. now wouldn't he be shocked if i move on.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">So you called him yesterday and his call back was not what you hoped for? What do you think he would he say if you told him that next session? That he didn't know what you needed? That he knows what you want but doesn't want to provide that to you? The "wouldn't he be shocked if I moved on" comment sounds like "tit for tat." Is that what you want?

I think seeing the other T one time in his absence has possibilities. Maybe a chance to get the neutral opinion of a third party. Sometimes we don't know what we're missing until we experience it. With my first T, I thought we were OK, but with my second (current) T, it is so much better. With the first one, I just didn't know what was lacking and in fact didn't sense a lack. Maybe you will find some qualities or insights with the substitute T that will help you decide if it is worth continuing with the current T or not. I will be curious to hear how a session with a substitute T goes and if you are able to open up on the first visit. Good luck!