I feel bad. Empty. I'm disconnected. I can't think. I can't write. I can't pay attention. I'm thinking about quitting everything right now, meds, working out, caring about anything, quiting it all. I haven't felt spiritual or real since I started taking prazosin again. I can't help but think I'd feel human if I went off all meds. I could become a person. A real person. Not someone stuck on and tied to meds and labels all the time. I don't like feeling this entirely empty. Where am I? Who am I? What could I really be like under all these layers of pills and labels and everything else that's built this pile of crap? Am I really even in there?