Rapunzel said it well. SI is the symptom of a deeper problem that needs to be looked at and healed from. For instance, why did you pick the screen name that you picked? Why do you feel that you deserve such a name? Because you self injure? Because you make mistakes in other ways?

You ended your post with "Help Me." The best way I can think of to help you is give you a safe hug if you want it {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Sweet New Friend who is not so stupid}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} and to welcome you to our humble home. We are all are going through the same struggle. Each of us is in a different stage on different paths of healing. Beginning to talk about it is the first step. You are in my thoughts,
Carrie