Hi Xeraine, things sound quite dreadful for you at home, I'm so sorry.

Have you considered contacting social services in your area to find out if they offer emergency housing that might be applicable to you? There may be community mental health services, housing assistance, domestic violence shelters, and other things that could be available to you. Could you do some Googling?

You are definitely being abused at home, so I hope there may be services that could help.

I know it would be hard to reach out, but others won't see you the way your father sees you. That is his problem, his anger, his unfairness, his mental illness. There are others who can see you more accurately and with kindness and compassion. I feel a lot of compassion for you, I don't think you deserve any of this and I really hope you can get some help and can escape.