[emoji615]TRIGGER WARNING[emoji615]

The following post contains:

- Real life gore
- Torture
- Snuff film
-Dog death
-Skinning alive

Please let me know if I need to add more. I feel like this is the only place I can talk about it. Everywhere else it is banned from talking about it and I really need to talk about it.

There are two viral videos going around on the internet. One involves someone being skinned alive and the other involves a dog being killed.

My curiosity got the best of me and I searched and found the skinned alive one.

I searched it because people said not to and I didn't believe something horrible like that could be real.

Oh but it was. I watched a few seconds and closed out right away. Traumatized and disturbed.

Ever since, I haven't been the same. Every night around 3 am when everyone is asleep.

I think I hear the guy who got killed walking around the house. I swear I see him sometimes just standing there staring at me. Sometimes I worry he will chase me.

Even though he is dead and wouldn't haunt me.

I can't get the images out of my head and fear that I gave myself some type of PTSD because of watching it and getting traumatized.

I feel paranoid and hyperviligilant, also jumpy.

Only late at night, when no one is awake.

I'm sorry if this triggered anyone but I need help.

Is there anything I can do to cope?

I'm really suffering...

I'm afraid to sleep because of it.

I know it's my own fault, for watching it. But I need help.