I've grown to know that I don't have to let the stigma rule my thoughts and actions. After being in the system over 30 years i can honestly say that I was wrong alot about the people who tried to help me. Most of them working in hospitals. There were several although that I questioned how they got their jobs. I myself had to learn to cope, and with the help of others both docs and nurses and patients I've learned alot. I am on alot of meds but am under control right now. I'm sorry for causing anyone any pain too. The stigma to me doesn't matter as much as i got older. I wish I could help people see that the stigma is just that-a stigma and most people do want to help. Many families suffer because they feel the stigma in their lives but they don't really have to. Many many people have mentl isues in their families and try to hide it, but if they would just step up and help each other they would see it is more common than they think.