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Old Jan 28, 2018, 03:42 PM
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Depression got the better of me today. It’s becoming a regular occurrence. My brother and family were round today, but I hid in my room. I love them, and my niece is adorable, but today I couldn’t face it.

I was meant to go to my work Christmas do tonight as well (yes, I know Christmas was a month ago, but retail means we don’t have time in December) but I couldn’t bring myself to go. I was looking forward to it, and fully expected to go, but changed my mind at the last minute. I doubt anyone will be surprised as I haven’t made it to a single work event since I started over a year ago...

I just want to hide from the world. It’s too much to handle lately. I know I have to work tomorrow, and I imagine I’ll force myself to go, but i really just want to stay home in bed. I only work three days a week and even that seems too much right now. Two days last week I very nearly called in sick, and still wish that I had.

I know these aren’t good signs, I know how this goes. And I still don’t know how to change it. It’s like I’m just standing back and watching the inevitable spiral downward.
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Tired of feeling lost, tired of letting go.
Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down.
Tired of wasting breath, tired of nothing left.
Tear the whole world down, tear the whole world down.
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Failure - Breaking Benjamin
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