My track record has not been good on this whole love thing. I'm zero for three in serious relationships. Zero for one in marriage. Zero for current relationships. I do sometimes register as "PlayerZ3R0" when I play some games, so maybe that's just it. Don't play the game, or play to lose, like a drinking game. I always lost those on purpose. I COULD bounce the quarter/ball into the cup with my eyes closed, but I'd rather they did with their eyes open and I got the free drinks.
I realize I trail off on my own thread. I'm ok with it.
The day had strange trailing too. The person that had invited me to the meditation group I was going to but stopped to feed my gym addiction was at the gym today. She hasn't been back either and stopped before I quit. I was thinking when I saw her "oh no. She's gonna try to get me back in there." Nope. Not at all. She does want to go back though I think. I'm very sure I'm not religious, because that involves rules, and the spirit doesn't obey the same rules that the body does. The mind is still a part of the body, isn't it? The spirit isn't.
I'm so grateful for several things today:
1. Stopped prazosin. I was able to get back into myself. I didn't feel so empty which I think is definitely attributed to lack of dreams.
2. Had dreams. I did come away with a word from my dreams, for my spirit animal, a female wolf, now named Laica. Laica is Italian for secular, "not following the rules of religion." Couldn't have been more appropriate.
3. Ran into the woman that invited me to the meditations and didn't feel pressured to go back. Told her about Laica and she understood me.
4. Worked out.
5. Went outside into cool but beautiful weather. The weather has such influence on mood.
6. "Love interruption" coming up on my radio via USB drive. It reminded me how painful love always has been and I probably should be much happier out of it, and certainly am more happy than when I "was in love." *Cough* *horsesh--* *cough*
7. Claiming bat---- crazy. It's mine now. Your power is gone from it, witch (my ex). Deadpool has a sack o ferrets, but I've got bat---- crazy.