I used to be very stressed out on that job, and hated when the boss would come around. I wonder if some of that was tied to the job? I don't have that weird compulsion anymore, really. But I recall that one because of how strange a feeling it was. I had to leave that job because I was worried I was going to get into it with the boss. I mean, this old dude was nuts, and the other foremen told me he tried fighting one of the foremen I worked with. If he would have put his hands on me, that would have been it. I would probably have had flashbacks and then... *shrug* I used to argue with him all the time, too, and I remember always feeling relieved when he would go away and I could get to my job without worrying about him sweating me about something stupid. That's how stressful it was.

What's crazy is now that I think of it, I can see how my last job was bringing it out, too, because I was constantly trying to put this guy's shop in order. He had it so messy, and it would drive me nuts. My anxiety was through the roof all the time, which made it that much harder to deal with customers. I hate sales, and yet I usually find myself in that field because, "Oh, you have such a way with customers!" Pff...if they only knew what it cost me.

I think that OCPD sounds closer to about what I had experienced after reading those, but I'm not going to self-diagnose beyond saying I'm just generally facing the right direction, I think...lol

Thanks for those articles.