I would like to ask.... what part of what you are doing... feels disassociative? because you are eliminating people out of your life.... or because you do not feel connected to anyone? or because you are living the "same old same old life day after day"....

perhaps... depressed???

so... to answer your question... in my opinion... I am not a T... pdoc....it sounds like you are trying to figure out the meaning of life.....