((((Fluff))))

I too am working through the aftermath of rupture. We too have repeated a pattern. Although I felt like we were back, I realized that the only back I had was my own. I do not feel the connection like before. And I don't want to right now.

I really get where you are. For me, I realized that I feel that T has died, like my father did.

Can you look at somewhere in your past where a similar pattern played out?

I am not yet ready to continue as before either. And maybe "as before" does not exist.

Yesterday I calmly stated that the only thing I could think of to do was to try and work it through but that I had no idea how to do that. Then I told him a dream and the rest of the session was supportive. I'm not ready to let him in again. We'll see.

So....can you just put all those other options aside and just go. Just go and be. Stay where you are.

(((((((Fluff))))))))

Therapy sucks.