There was a period in my life when I, essentially, obsessed over and stalked girls. I've been attributing that my my OCD and ASD tendencies. Or maybe that's just... Well, who knows what that is... Although the fact is that I still haven't had a romantic partner and in fact stopped trying a while ago, because I just don't get it... And I suppose I didn't get it back then, either. I just needed to deify a girl... well, actually, I had a tendency to deify people in general (some specific ones that treated me well, not humankind as a whole). But I wouldn't know what to do with them if the girl reciprocated, I don't think.

Well, what I count as the second episode of this phase, I was simply heart-broken over the end of the previous obsession. And the girl was... I've got no clue why I got attached to her! Well, I guess I don't know with the other ones either. We barely interacted... But for some reason this episode is the most painful, because it seems like we had the least in common. Well, it ended as I got up the "courage" to call her on the phone and asked if she already had a boyfriend. She said "yes", and I hung up, if I'm not misremembering... That just feels so dumb... And is one of a few reasons why I can't stand watching romantic movies or moments in movies, because that memory gets triggered...