Something has not been right with me for a few days. I will admit that I've been in the midst of my monthly period, but I know it goes well beyond that. Just the smallest things have been making my blood simmer, and bigger things have been making my blood boil. I do have some stressors coming up, but oddly much of the anger is for things that I should not be getting angry about. Like angry ruminations on things that happened 15 years ago. Or an issue my husband is having with a British clothing company he ordered something from (we're in the US). The little stuff is just like the mess that's in the kitchen, or something the cashier said at the grocery store. I'll be in my car and start to yell as if I'm yelling at someone, even though they're not present. I'll do the same at home. Or if I'm not yelling at a pretend person, I'm jerking and grinding my teeth, and hitting the pillow.

I don't necessarily think this is a mixed hypomania coming on. I think it surly is the affect of stress on me. I certainly hope it doesn't trigger any kind of episode.

Can people relate to this? I wonder if anyone has any suggestions other than taking a benzo. I'm trying to wean off my Ativan and would hate to start taking a higher dose during this effort.

By the way, if there is anyone who lives in the UK, does the UK have anything akin to the "Better Business Bureau" in the United States? The Better Business Bureau compiles a directory of trustworthy companies that offer good and trustworthy service to their customers. It is also a place where you can send a complaint about a company that is abusive or dishonest to customers. Don't worry, I'll leave the complaints to my husband who is much more imperturbable than me. Plus, the problem is actually between him and that company, and yet I'm getting furious about it.