It's interesting to me that we gain weight over time but don't seem able to lose it at the same rate, reversing what we know the problems are.

I gained 125 pounds in 25 years and thought, why not lose 5 pounds a year for the next 25 years but that's not satisfactory in some way. For some reason we "suddenly" gain 30 pounds and don't realize it can't happen that way without a problem like your zyprexa. I gained 30 pounds over a 3 month period and losing 10 pounds a month is not too much (or at that time, too hard). Now I'm slowly losing but it doesn't make me feel better, it's like the added 115 pounds I weigh over what is probably a more healthy weight is a single-celled thing, not made up of 5 pounds here and an odd 1 or 2 there like it was when I was gaining it. There's a whole way of thinking that changes, morphs into something else between gaining weight, deciding it's too much and then trying to lose it again.