They said bipolar back in Sept. 2006 when I was having "horror movie hallucinations" I've been okay mostly- but now really bad these last few days. My social worker called tonight after I'd called the office and talked with a nurse; she said to listen to soothing music and "lay low" until I can see my psych. dr. on Friday- but I couldn't tell her because it was so noisy that I have BEEN doing that and it isn't working much! I sat for 4 hours listening to a wonderful piece of music but although I enjoyed it, I was not relaxed at all. She said it sounds like I'm going through withdrawal from the Valium I had last week. I still am freaking out. and of short temper with the kids. Its horrible. Some woman yelled at me at their school I think- I dunno. I got away from her asap. I managed to take the kids to dinner and do their homework with them, but I really am SOOOOOOO antsy. My boyfriend wants me to meditate. Honestly, I just want to watch a dvd and have a drink! I know that sounds horrible but this is intollerable. Plus, I have to go to work tomorrow. Yeah- sure. I have listened to music, and watched tv- even bought the Family Guy Star Wars episode which is funny- but I only laughed out loud once. I want to claw at the walls or beat someone up or something. I guess I"m back to dvds and reading............ Thank you for posting back! It means a lot just to have that!