I do not miss being hospitalized even though it helped a great deal. I was hospitalized 35 years ago. Actually, it was a rich person’s retreat for when they have their “nervous breakdowns”. It was a nice experience. I chose not to have a psychiatrist treat me. My T made that happen. However, by the end of the month, it costed me $100,000. This is in 1983 dollars. I sent the bill to my employer who decided to pay for it.

I will never be able to afford it. Even public psych wards can be expensive. I simply cannot afford it. So I do my best to stay out of it. As an aside, I do not remember eating or taking a shower. I do not even remember what I wore. I do remember some parts of it. Boy was I screwed up.

PS The only public facility that I am aware of closed down. So it will have to be a hospital psych ward. This is where a bunch of people there are in a small room staring at each other every day. No thankyou. Perhaps one of these expensive private hospitals will work. However, there is no way I can afford it.