Well we kinda figured out what's wrong with my car, my O2 sensor is going out. That's why it keeps sputtering back at me when I press on the gas. It's going to cost $140 to fix. It's mainly the labor that's going to be intensive because of how it's "welded" on there due to where the sensor is, it kept getting heated up then cooled down over the past few years so now it's stuck. I'm hoping the O2 sensor is all that's wrong with my car, cause if not idk what to do.

Other than that, I kept hearing people outside of my house today but when I checked nobody was there. First it was a guy by the back door .. and then an hour ago it was a lady by the front door .. I'm tripping again. Great. I keep hearing things scratching around in the walls too, it's starting to make me really nervous and on edge. I keep seeing things move around out of the corners of my eyes too, like there will be a flash of light but no source.. or the table will slide but it doesn't look out of place when I look at it head on. I'm trying to find a logical explanation for what's going on but I can't really find one, it's like my mind is playing tricks on me.

I slept most of the day away because it makes me feel better and I can't see/hear anything while I'm asleep. Seems to be the only option I have to keep the voices and stuff at bay. Hopefully this eases up soon. The weirdest thing is I'm not having a mood episode, honestly I feel nothing as far as mania or depression goes. I'm numb except for the paranoia that's starting to set in. I get worried though, that I'm going to lose my mind and not be able to tell what's real from what's fake .. especially since the voices are starting back up. I rarely hear voices but they're here again and they sound so darn real. I'm having a rough time right now .. and I can't see any of my doctors or my therapist due to my car not working. So I'm stuck at home, dealing with this crap again. I will call my case manager and let her know what's going on in the morning. I probably need to call my lawyer and let her know too since she's managing my disability case.