i never lost the 'baby fat' from my first son 15 yrs ago...all my life till i got preggers I was tall n thin...but after he was born i got the birth control where 5 'sticks' went into the upper arm and it messed me up in more than just weight...then i had my second son and was put on meds including insulin and everything else and now no matter what i havent really lost anything...well lost 10 lbs when i was on liquid diet but that is back already...it bothers me alot, but then again my self portrait is very denigrating by nature in my mind. but right now i am very depressed so it is worse...if moggles ever gets rich i want surgery...i swore before i would never need or want it and to be happy with myself...but i want the stretch marks and flabby skin off my belly at least...i had someone tell me it was hot to see stretch marks on a woman cause them having a baby is the most wonderful thing in the world...ugghhh, i wish i had that frame of mind!!! anyway, i am rambling sorry~mel