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Originally Posted by TishaBuv
I confronted and talked it out. I didn’t get the responses I would have liked, but that part helped. I also vented about it by writing and getting support from friends. Then, magically, a lot of those hurt feelings lifted and I feel like I can let it go and move on.
I must add though, that I was very careful about the confrontation so it did not backfire and devastate me worse.
You just have to love yourself and want peace and happiness for yourself and you will get there.
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I think I just want to stop hearing his voice in my head however even saying that feels violating as he said the very same thing to me in a very hostile manner. The only way I can figure it is he had no identity so he took what I was giving him and threw it back at me. He basically became me. That was very disturbing. He mirrored everything back to me, so when the relationship completely disintegrating he was saying all the stuff to me that I should have been doing for myself. It was very unsettling. If I say I want him out of my head I hear him saying very angrily that he had to go to therapy to get me out of my head and what I did to him and the lies I told him, which in reality is what he did to me. It was insane.