Hope you find the friends you deserve. I've made the mistake over my 65+ years of not staying in touch with friends. Now that severe depression has hit me again, I only have my long time girlfriend who tries to console me. Very difficult for her. It's smart to reach out to your friends and people on this forum. Not a sign of weakness, -------sign of strength. You want to feel better. Take care. I should read all posts---(I'm sorry, glad your friends are there for you!)