You didn’t cause any trouble, no need to apologize. I want you too know hat we can’t diagnosis here. You need to schedule an appointment with your doctor. They can give you a referral to a psychiatrist. You seem extremely anxious about a lot of things. Like socializing and intrusive thoughts. It’s quite common for people with anxiety to feel extreme paranoia, but recognize it as paranoia. They might think they have a illness like schizophrenia or psychosis. And they might actually do. People with severe anxiety may hearing mild voices that is actually an internal voice. It’s just voicing what they are thinking.

That doesn’t mean that this is anxiety. It could very well be the onset of a debilitating disorder such as schizophrenia. It could also be a brain tumor, Anti-NMDA receptor encephalitis, or another variety of disorders. It could be depression or bipolar. Your insight is very much intact, my friend, the user of this account, pdoc told her people who generally have insight have another condition a few months ago. Usually depression with psychosis. She doesn’t know if that’s true or not. Or it could be delusional disorder. It could be a personality disorder, I’m diagnosed with borderline, schizotypal and paranoid traits. I sometimes experience short psychotic episodes. Tell them your symptoms like the OCD like ones and the paranoia. Like I said we don’t diagonsis since it’s the internet. We can only theorize.
- WonderlandCat( The best friend and editor of/for Alice)