Hi. I just signed up for this forum, never done this before. I have had bulimia for almost 20yrs and before that anorexia in my teens. I have fluctuated between really looking at and trying to deal with my habits face to face, feeling utterly powerless, deciding it was ok to let it be my vice, hating it, feeling powerless, best intentions and then bingeing a half hour later, and so on.
Now i am in a relationship with real love and i really want to find my path to health, even slowly, even with failures, even with some sharing with my partner so the love can help too (and so i can help the love relationship). I know hiding it created distance and breakup in the past, rather than the opposite which i somehow had imagined. I won't let that happen again.

I just want to have a place to be totally honest. Even on a day like this i already binged and purged on rice i had cooked last night and was sitting at home uneaten.
Anyway will check in again. Thank you for holding this space.